I hung up.My mouth agape,I could not believe what Gabriel has just told me."I have to leave you,Gladys,even though I do not want to.Please forgive me.Let's meet up for the very last time."NO NO NO!This is not happening,he must be lying.Gabriel must be lying!He must be having something up his sleeve.Some big surprise.If he thinks he is scaring me by saying he is leaving,he is SO wrong.But still,I could not help being worried.The sadness in his voice as he said the dreadful words....How could he be possibly be lying?Tears leaked out of my eyes.They streamed down like the speed of lightning down my cheeks when I bit my lips to stop it from flowing down.I swept away the tears with the back of my hand.
I proceeded to the bathroom and wash my face with water.After feeling refresh,I look at myself in the mirror to make sure I look fine.Then I glanced down at my watch.It was 2.20 pm in the afternoon.Although I had time to put a little make-up before going off,I just dashed out of the house without bading goodbye to my mother,who was cooking in the kitchen.
With all my might,I raced to the bus-stop to catch the bus that was about to leave.Soon I reached the beach.It was only 2.45 pm.I strolled towards the seashore.This is where Gabriel and I shared a memorable time.I swallowed hard on my saliva to prevent from crying again.I really wonder if Gabriel was honest about what he had said earlier on.I just wanted to know the truth.I still have some more time to kill.I threw some stones into the wide sea as though i was venting my anger.What if what Gabriel said was true?What if he really was going to leave me-for good?I sniffed as I threw more stones into the sea.
"Hey girl!You are not supposed to do that!"I jumped at that instance,but soon processed the familiar voice in my head.I smiled,and turned around to see my Gabriel.Or perhaps,my soon-gone-Gabriel.I frowned and some tears rained down at the thought of that."Hey!Why are you crying?"He grabbed my arms and pulled me towards him.I cried in his shoulders.I just could not help myself from thinking that he is going to leave me-forever.I choked between my words,"Tell me the truth.Are you really going to leave me?"He smiled and probed,"Oh,how could I possibly bear to leave my love one?"
He grabbed my hand.We walked towards a bench where the there were lesser people.Then he looked at me with serious eyes."But then again,I still will have to leave you."As he finished,I heard a sniffle,and his eyes became teary.It was the first time I ever see him cry."I don't want to leave you yet,Gladys.I am not ready to,"he continued."How could we just spend one day together and that's it,the end?I still want to spend the rest of my lifetime with you."He added.I replied,"Me too.I never loved anyone as much as I did for you.I really do not want to leave you!I cannot bear to!"I began to sob more.
"Look Gladys,don't cry over me anymore from tomorrow onwards,"Gabriel said, as though he understood everything at once."I'm sure you'll meet some other guy that is better than me.I'm not....""No!I want you,and only you!Nobody else can replace you in my heart!"I interrupted.This is really unbelievable.It just isn't fair,how we fall so deeply for each other and yet have to be separated in the end.Why,God?Why can't I have him?I really really love him.Why do you have to make him leave me?I shut my eyes.I'm sure Gabriel could tell I was really upset.He hugged me and patted my back,hoping to cheer me up.Even in this difficult time,I still felt warm in his arms.
"Gladys,there are times we can't have things the way we want them to be.This is just one of them.I know,we want to be with each other,but we can't.Let's accept the fact."I wanted to scream at what he said,but told myself not to.Before I even know,I mouthed,"Gabriel,I don't care.I won't give up as long as there's hope!We will still visit each other even if we're in two different countries!I won't let this fact separate the both of us!I'll be with you in the end!"As though mortified or something,Gabriel looked at me with puzzled looks and shook his head.He thinks that it is impossible?How can he be so negative?
"Gabriel,I just want to let you know.I can't give up on you.You won my heart,long ago.I want to have you forever.I love you!"He smiled,showing a tired face.We embraced each other,and watched the beautiful sunset....
Monday, December 8, 2008
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
#05
What should I wear?Velvet dress with my yellow cardigan?Should I doll my hair up into a ponytail,or braid my hair into a complete mess?Which perfume?Definitely one that is not too strong a scent and stink my boy out.And with my black high heel shoes?This could be some really irritating stuff.I guess it is just the way it is.I need a 'First Date' guide book.How to I dress?Formally or informally?OH!This is killing me!
Finally,I was making my way to Sunset Highway after around one hour of dolling up and deciding what to wear.I'll blow him away,I thought to myself,grinning satisfically.When I reached the stairs,far down there,was a figure of a guy.It was Gabriel,no doubt.Cold sweat raged down my spine.Wait a minute.What was he holding in his hand?I walked down the stairs,my shoes clattering at each step as I narrowed my eyes to catch what exactly was in his hand.Soft toy?No it was not.Flowers!Oh my!My jaw dropped to the ground.He must have seen him when he turned around.
He gave me an affectionate smile.Just what I needed to bright up my day!He waited for me to walk towards him.He looked at me from head to toes.Did I blow him off?"For you,"He began.How sweet!I took the bouquet of lilies from his hands and smelled it.It smelled great. "Thanks,Gabriel."I told him.We strolled slowly down the highway.So far so good.If there would be more of this,it would be really fabulous.
We chatted about school life and normal stuffs,just like we did last year.When I scooped up some ice-cream and place it into my mouth,it flowed out from my mouth.Gabriel wiped my mouth with the napkin which was on the table.I felt my cheeks burning."Oh,how cute you look when you blush!"he teased and I laughed.What a gentle lad.He footed the bill and then we strode towards the beach.When we reahed there,he suddenly took my right hand.I felt myself blushing again.His hand was warm and a little bigger than mine.It felt right.I met his eyes,only to catch him laughing at me.
He suddenly squeezed my hand tightly.An "Aw!" escaped my lips and he ran away."You cheeky boy!"I ran after him,determine to catch him.He jogged slowly,as if to let me catch up with him.I took both his hands and we spun around the sand,laughing together.That was when we suddenly stop spinning around and gazed fixedly at each other.Gabriel stop smiling and laughing.I stopped laughing and grinning too.
With a serious look on his face,Gabriel reached his hand out to my arms and probed,"Gladys,you know what?You look beautiful tonight.I mean it."I let him continue."I don't want to regret dating with you.And I guess I won't.You think?""Hmm...."I answered,still thinking about what he had said before that."I don't regret dating with you,Gabriel.You know what?I love your smile.I guess I'm kind of addicted to it.It just lights up my day.I can't believe
I'm here tonight,and especially,with you.Seems like you are my new addiction.I never thought this day would come."I pondered over what I had told him.I was right.It was the best thing in the world,was it not?
Gabriel replied after a while,"Well,you have to,then."He embraced me with a warm hug.Resting my head on his shoulder,I wished that time would stop.I wanted this moment to be everlasting.Me,being in his arms.It felt great.I felt like it was even better than my cozy bed.I pushed away from him slightly,and he smiled at me.He look into my eyes,and mine into his.His face came closer to mine.We were soon close enough.We closed our eyes,and kissed.The first of many kisses.Our tongues soon met.It felt almost perfect.We were not pressing too hard on each other's lips,though there was a little-just a little difficulty in breathing.It was,as of fact,still the very first kiss.
We then opened our eyes.He beamed at me,looking rather satisfied.There was a long moment of silence.He broke the silence."Uh....Wow!It was.....uh,nice."He blushed at the instant he said that.I giggled."Yeah...Hey,you look cute when you blush too!"He smiled and tickled me at my ribs and ran away again.I muttered,"Thanks for tonight,Gabriel."before I went to get him for tickling me.
Finally,I was making my way to Sunset Highway after around one hour of dolling up and deciding what to wear.I'll blow him away,I thought to myself,grinning satisfically.When I reached the stairs,far down there,was a figure of a guy.It was Gabriel,no doubt.Cold sweat raged down my spine.Wait a minute.What was he holding in his hand?I walked down the stairs,my shoes clattering at each step as I narrowed my eyes to catch what exactly was in his hand.Soft toy?No it was not.Flowers!Oh my!My jaw dropped to the ground.He must have seen him when he turned around.
He gave me an affectionate smile.Just what I needed to bright up my day!He waited for me to walk towards him.He looked at me from head to toes.Did I blow him off?"For you,"He began.How sweet!I took the bouquet of lilies from his hands and smelled it.It smelled great. "Thanks,Gabriel."I told him.We strolled slowly down the highway.So far so good.If there would be more of this,it would be really fabulous.
We chatted about school life and normal stuffs,just like we did last year.When I scooped up some ice-cream and place it into my mouth,it flowed out from my mouth.Gabriel wiped my mouth with the napkin which was on the table.I felt my cheeks burning."Oh,how cute you look when you blush!"he teased and I laughed.What a gentle lad.He footed the bill and then we strode towards the beach.When we reahed there,he suddenly took my right hand.I felt myself blushing again.His hand was warm and a little bigger than mine.It felt right.I met his eyes,only to catch him laughing at me.
He suddenly squeezed my hand tightly.An "Aw!" escaped my lips and he ran away."You cheeky boy!"I ran after him,determine to catch him.He jogged slowly,as if to let me catch up with him.I took both his hands and we spun around the sand,laughing together.That was when we suddenly stop spinning around and gazed fixedly at each other.Gabriel stop smiling and laughing.I stopped laughing and grinning too.
With a serious look on his face,Gabriel reached his hand out to my arms and probed,"Gladys,you know what?You look beautiful tonight.I mean it."I let him continue."I don't want to regret dating with you.And I guess I won't.You think?""Hmm...."I answered,still thinking about what he had said before that."I don't regret dating with you,Gabriel.You know what?I love your smile.I guess I'm kind of addicted to it.It just lights up my day.I can't believe
I'm here tonight,and especially,with you.Seems like you are my new addiction.I never thought this day would come."I pondered over what I had told him.I was right.It was the best thing in the world,was it not?
Gabriel replied after a while,"Well,you have to,then."He embraced me with a warm hug.Resting my head on his shoulder,I wished that time would stop.I wanted this moment to be everlasting.Me,being in his arms.It felt great.I felt like it was even better than my cozy bed.I pushed away from him slightly,and he smiled at me.He look into my eyes,and mine into his.His face came closer to mine.We were soon close enough.We closed our eyes,and kissed.The first of many kisses.Our tongues soon met.It felt almost perfect.We were not pressing too hard on each other's lips,though there was a little-just a little difficulty in breathing.It was,as of fact,still the very first kiss.
We then opened our eyes.He beamed at me,looking rather satisfied.There was a long moment of silence.He broke the silence."Uh....Wow!It was.....uh,nice."He blushed at the instant he said that.I giggled."Yeah...Hey,you look cute when you blush too!"He smiled and tickled me at my ribs and ran away again.I muttered,"Thanks for tonight,Gabriel."before I went to get him for tickling me.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
#04
It was not that difficult afterall.I gave him up!However,his smile will never be forgotten.Well,it was not too bad not crushing on him.At least we can still be friends.I finally was not crushing on him anymore.Or you could say,I AM crushing on him,but I do not let it show.Anyways,I am comfortable with it.
A year passed by in a split second.I was going to a different class as Gabriel.I did not know whether it was good news or bad news.I was quite bummed about it though.I do not really want to go to a different class as him.But there was no choice.Bye,Gabriel,I told myself.
It felt weird not having him around.But I made new friends together with Alyssa.Gabriel and I were starting not to hang out together anymore.He even changed his mobile phone number without informing me,causing me to send out some wasted SMSes.He seldom go online on the Messenger Online Net too.So there.I watched the distance between Gabriel and me increase itself.
I felt infuriated and disappointed.After one whole year of friendship,how could Gabriel completely ignore,or even forget me?Fine!Who needs him now that I have my besties here with me?I do not!I can do without him!I must forget that bastard,I told myself.
Unfortunately,as time flies by,the more I wanted to forget him,the more I thought of him.It was frustrating and I simply could not stop thinking about it.Now I wanted to hang out with him again,and do the things we did together last year.No no no.How could I?How could I even think about that bastard?How could I be missing him when in his mind,there already was not a person called Gladys?But I could not resist the temptation to talk to him.I will just talk to him.Nothing more than that,I vowed to myself.
Four months passed by like an aeroplace.It took some while for us to go online on Messenger Online Net.Finally,the precious moment came.
GlaDDDDDys: hello!=)
gaybrer: hi.
GlaDDDDDys: it's been a while since we last talk.
gaybrer: true.
GlaDDDDDys: so.....how's life?doing fine?
gaybrer: yeah,of course.
gaybrer: =)
gaybrer: how 'bout you?
GlaDDDDDys: same.life's great!
No,it is not.Not at all,I thought to myself.We talked about the normal stuffs like school life and each other.If only....If only I did not go on any further to talk about....liking him.If only.....If only the word 'if' did not exist!
GlaDDDDDys: hey.uh,i think......i am still a little fond of you.
gaybrer: uh..................you're joking.
GlaDDDDDys: no....i totally wasn't.it was true.i thought i wouldn't fall for you again.sigh,little did i know.
gaybrer: oh.
There was silence for some long minutes.After that,there was really nothing to talk to him about.Sigh,what should I do now?He was surprised,but did not say he like me.Game over,Gladys.Give him up!He does not like you!Game over,game over,game over.....I felt tears stinging behind my eyes and I blinked it away before it could blur my vision.I switched off the computer and headed to my room.Once inside,I threw myself to my ruby chair.Then,with my head buried in my hands,I sobbed my heart out.Is this the end?Is the end of our friendship and relationship?It this going to end just like that?I shook my head in denial.Why?Why must it be the end of Gabriel and my friendship?I would rather give up my friendship with Alyssa than with him.No!!!I could not.Alyssa is my good friend.Then what about Gabriel?More tears leaked out from my eyes.
Just then.the ringtone of my handphone sounded."Hello?"I sniffled.It was a familiar voice.Specification?The voice I had not and longed to hear for the past four months."Gladys?It's me.I guess it's hard to say....What I mean is,I guess I am kind of fond of you too.Actually,I have been fond of you around the start of this year.But since we were in the different class,I guess we would not be able to hang out so often and so I decided to forget you.Until you talk to me just now,I did not realise you are actually....still thinking I am so charming!"Chuckling,I felt tenses and muscles easing.He is back.Gabriel is back.We are back.So back!He continued,"That is why I did not gave you my new mobile phone number.Really sorry,Gladys.Anyway,I've got to hang up now.Talk to you soon some other day."
He like me!He is fond of me!We are fond of each other!I could not believe whatever is going on between us.What happened exactly?How did it happen?Totally bewildering.Anyway,it was really amazing how fast we confessed to each other.Maybe it was going a little too fast a pace.But I could not care less about that.I was glad enough that we could hang out together soon!
Gabriel finally messaged me after long awaited days.It read,"Hey,let's meet out this sunday at the same place.you're free,right?i guess we have to keep up with each other.as in,know each other a little more better before we go into a relationship,okay?"I smiled broadly.Cool!I was glad he was not anxious to get into a relationship too soon.It would be really ideal to do it his way.
I grew a bigger liking on him.I wanted to thank him,for giving me a chance to let me love him again.I will never let him go again!I promised myself to never let go of this good chance.In a blink of an eye,Sunday was over.Tuesday!It would be the ever FIRST date!First date with Gabriel!I could not help feeling nervous and anticipated.You can also say I could not wait!
A year passed by in a split second.I was going to a different class as Gabriel.I did not know whether it was good news or bad news.I was quite bummed about it though.I do not really want to go to a different class as him.But there was no choice.Bye,Gabriel,I told myself.
It felt weird not having him around.But I made new friends together with Alyssa.Gabriel and I were starting not to hang out together anymore.He even changed his mobile phone number without informing me,causing me to send out some wasted SMSes.He seldom go online on the Messenger Online Net too.So there.I watched the distance between Gabriel and me increase itself.
I felt infuriated and disappointed.After one whole year of friendship,how could Gabriel completely ignore,or even forget me?Fine!Who needs him now that I have my besties here with me?I do not!I can do without him!I must forget that bastard,I told myself.
Unfortunately,as time flies by,the more I wanted to forget him,the more I thought of him.It was frustrating and I simply could not stop thinking about it.Now I wanted to hang out with him again,and do the things we did together last year.No no no.How could I?How could I even think about that bastard?How could I be missing him when in his mind,there already was not a person called Gladys?But I could not resist the temptation to talk to him.I will just talk to him.Nothing more than that,I vowed to myself.
Four months passed by like an aeroplace.It took some while for us to go online on Messenger Online Net.Finally,the precious moment came.
GlaDDDDDys: hello!=)
gaybrer: hi.
GlaDDDDDys: it's been a while since we last talk.
gaybrer: true.
GlaDDDDDys: so.....how's life?doing fine?
gaybrer: yeah,of course.
gaybrer: =)
gaybrer: how 'bout you?
GlaDDDDDys: same.life's great!
No,it is not.Not at all,I thought to myself.We talked about the normal stuffs like school life and each other.If only....If only I did not go on any further to talk about....liking him.If only.....If only the word 'if' did not exist!
GlaDDDDDys: hey.uh,i think......i am still a little fond of you.
gaybrer: uh..................you're joking.
GlaDDDDDys: no....i totally wasn't.it was true.i thought i wouldn't fall for you again.sigh,little did i know.
gaybrer: oh.
There was silence for some long minutes.After that,there was really nothing to talk to him about.Sigh,what should I do now?He was surprised,but did not say he like me.Game over,Gladys.Give him up!He does not like you!Game over,game over,game over.....I felt tears stinging behind my eyes and I blinked it away before it could blur my vision.I switched off the computer and headed to my room.Once inside,I threw myself to my ruby chair.Then,with my head buried in my hands,I sobbed my heart out.Is this the end?Is the end of our friendship and relationship?It this going to end just like that?I shook my head in denial.Why?Why must it be the end of Gabriel and my friendship?I would rather give up my friendship with Alyssa than with him.No!!!I could not.Alyssa is my good friend.Then what about Gabriel?More tears leaked out from my eyes.
Just then.the ringtone of my handphone sounded."Hello?"I sniffled.It was a familiar voice.Specification?The voice I had not and longed to hear for the past four months."Gladys?It's me.I guess it's hard to say....What I mean is,I guess I am kind of fond of you too.Actually,I have been fond of you around the start of this year.But since we were in the different class,I guess we would not be able to hang out so often and so I decided to forget you.Until you talk to me just now,I did not realise you are actually....still thinking I am so charming!"Chuckling,I felt tenses and muscles easing.He is back.Gabriel is back.We are back.So back!He continued,"That is why I did not gave you my new mobile phone number.Really sorry,Gladys.Anyway,I've got to hang up now.Talk to you soon some other day."
He like me!He is fond of me!We are fond of each other!I could not believe whatever is going on between us.What happened exactly?How did it happen?Totally bewildering.Anyway,it was really amazing how fast we confessed to each other.Maybe it was going a little too fast a pace.But I could not care less about that.I was glad enough that we could hang out together soon!
Gabriel finally messaged me after long awaited days.It read,"Hey,let's meet out this sunday at the same place.you're free,right?i guess we have to keep up with each other.as in,know each other a little more better before we go into a relationship,okay?"I smiled broadly.Cool!I was glad he was not anxious to get into a relationship too soon.It would be really ideal to do it his way.
I grew a bigger liking on him.I wanted to thank him,for giving me a chance to let me love him again.I will never let him go again!I promised myself to never let go of this good chance.In a blink of an eye,Sunday was over.Tuesday!It would be the ever FIRST date!First date with Gabriel!I could not help feeling nervous and anticipated.You can also say I could not wait!
Thursday, October 16, 2008
#03
Right.I think I made things worse.Why did not he gave me at least a reply?Why did he just give me a smile and left?Does that mean he like me or not?Now what?I scratched my head before hitting my head on my pillow.I was feeling a little dread to see Gabriel again.I felt kind of embarrassed and disappointed at his reaction.What was that all about?What did he mean by that?Sigh....
I must have been spending the whole night thinking about him now that I was almost deadbeat.Yawning,I made myself to the living room.Oh great.6.18 a.m.I have got to get ready for school.I was bleary-eyed.I could give anything to skip school and go back to sleep.And of course,to avoid seeing Gabriel.But no,I could not.Today was the presentation of the 'Dylexsia' project.I skipped breakfast and dashed to school.I did not want to be late.
Once I stepped into the classroom,I saw Gabriel smiling at me.I looked at my feet and I could feel my cheeks turning red instantly.Here goes,dreaded moment.I sat down at my desk at the same the time he turned his body around to talk to me."Urm....about yesterday...."He began.I sighed a huge sigh and looked away."Were you serious?"He continued.I turned to him and just mumbled,"I don't want to talk about it."He nodded his head and faced the whiteboard just as Mrs Ballington walked in.
I kept running through the scenario that happened yesterday in my mind.I did not paid much attention in class.Why did I just blurt out everything to him yesterday?That was a big mistake!I know not how to face him now.One word to describe my emotion:Confused.What should I do?Put this thing aside,and pay attention to what Mrs Ballington is talking about,maybe.
I did not talk to Gabriel for the past four hours.For the first time,I did not feel the urge to talk to him.Maybe that was because of......."Ring!!!"The school bell rang.A group of girls leapt from their seats and dashed out of the classroom in the next second,followed by some other pupils.I packed my backpack and was about to leave when Gabriel caught my attention.He was looking at me with his innocent eyes this time,as though he wanted to know what was wrong.
"Sorry,Gabriel.I....I didn't meant what I said yesterday."I told him.Then I let out a sigh of relief.I bit my lip while waiting for his response,hoping he would believe me.He gave me a puzzled look."Uh,I kind of don't buy that."He simply answered."Fine if you do not,"I stammered,and left in a hurry.I could picture his confused eyes as he see me leaving.
I sauntered home.He did not followed me.What have you done?Why were you so irritated?He did not do anything wrong,did he?Why do you have to shout at him?I was starting to feel annoyed at myself.I wanted to say sorry to him,and take back my words.But time could not rewind.Towards the end of the day,I began to realised I had over-reacted.I confessed to him,and then he smiled,and left,I recalled,for probably the 50th time."Sorry Gabriel."I mumbled.My eyelids gradually came down and I was asleep in the midst of the revision for chemistry.
"Look,Gabriel.I am so sorry about yesterday.And the day before."I started.He nodded,but did not speak."I guess....I should not have said all that...."I told him.He turned to me,and nodded slightly.There was silence for a few seconds."I guess I was a little uncomfortable about what you told me that day.You know,when you told me you like me and all,"was what he said.I tried hard not to blush.I wondered how and what I should answer next."Maybe because...I treated you only as a friend,not THAT way,you know?And I am surprised at how much charm I possess."He laughed."I had to laugh at that too."Well,you are really charming,so as to speak."I confessed.He smiled again.Thanks,Gabriel,I will never ever forget that smile."And uh....so sorry for making you 'feel uncomfortable'.I will try to get over you,deal?"Gabriel nodded at what I said."Thanks,I know we will still be good as friends,"he mouthed.
Problem solved.I have to get over him.But,I guess it would not be so easy to.As people say,"Easier said than done." I could not agree more.But I would have to just give it a try.Though I do not really know how to start.Well,at least we can still remain as friends.At least we can still be comfortable with each other.And little did I know.......at least there is a possibility of a next time.....a next time of falling in love with him again.
I must have been spending the whole night thinking about him now that I was almost deadbeat.Yawning,I made myself to the living room.Oh great.6.18 a.m.I have got to get ready for school.I was bleary-eyed.I could give anything to skip school and go back to sleep.And of course,to avoid seeing Gabriel.But no,I could not.Today was the presentation of the 'Dylexsia' project.I skipped breakfast and dashed to school.I did not want to be late.
Once I stepped into the classroom,I saw Gabriel smiling at me.I looked at my feet and I could feel my cheeks turning red instantly.Here goes,dreaded moment.I sat down at my desk at the same the time he turned his body around to talk to me."Urm....about yesterday...."He began.I sighed a huge sigh and looked away."Were you serious?"He continued.I turned to him and just mumbled,"I don't want to talk about it."He nodded his head and faced the whiteboard just as Mrs Ballington walked in.
I kept running through the scenario that happened yesterday in my mind.I did not paid much attention in class.Why did I just blurt out everything to him yesterday?That was a big mistake!I know not how to face him now.One word to describe my emotion:Confused.What should I do?Put this thing aside,and pay attention to what Mrs Ballington is talking about,maybe.
I did not talk to Gabriel for the past four hours.For the first time,I did not feel the urge to talk to him.Maybe that was because of......."Ring!!!"The school bell rang.A group of girls leapt from their seats and dashed out of the classroom in the next second,followed by some other pupils.I packed my backpack and was about to leave when Gabriel caught my attention.He was looking at me with his innocent eyes this time,as though he wanted to know what was wrong.
"Sorry,Gabriel.I....I didn't meant what I said yesterday."I told him.Then I let out a sigh of relief.I bit my lip while waiting for his response,hoping he would believe me.He gave me a puzzled look."Uh,I kind of don't buy that."He simply answered."Fine if you do not,"I stammered,and left in a hurry.I could picture his confused eyes as he see me leaving.
I sauntered home.He did not followed me.What have you done?Why were you so irritated?He did not do anything wrong,did he?Why do you have to shout at him?I was starting to feel annoyed at myself.I wanted to say sorry to him,and take back my words.But time could not rewind.Towards the end of the day,I began to realised I had over-reacted.I confessed to him,and then he smiled,and left,I recalled,for probably the 50th time."Sorry Gabriel."I mumbled.My eyelids gradually came down and I was asleep in the midst of the revision for chemistry.
"Look,Gabriel.I am so sorry about yesterday.And the day before."I started.He nodded,but did not speak."I guess....I should not have said all that...."I told him.He turned to me,and nodded slightly.There was silence for a few seconds."I guess I was a little uncomfortable about what you told me that day.You know,when you told me you like me and all,"was what he said.I tried hard not to blush.I wondered how and what I should answer next."Maybe because...I treated you only as a friend,not THAT way,you know?And I am surprised at how much charm I possess."He laughed."I had to laugh at that too."Well,you are really charming,so as to speak."I confessed.He smiled again.Thanks,Gabriel,I will never ever forget that smile."And uh....so sorry for making you 'feel uncomfortable'.I will try to get over you,deal?"Gabriel nodded at what I said."Thanks,I know we will still be good as friends,"he mouthed.
Problem solved.I have to get over him.But,I guess it would not be so easy to.As people say,"Easier said than done." I could not agree more.But I would have to just give it a try.Though I do not really know how to start.Well,at least we can still remain as friends.At least we can still be comfortable with each other.And little did I know.......at least there is a possibility of a next time.....a next time of falling in love with him again.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
#02
"Great.Totally great.I am really in love with him!Is this what they call....love at first sight?I guess so."I wrote off and sighed loudly.I'm really really really in love in him!Oh my!I refused to repudiate reality however.That was when I realised both our names starts with G.Gabriel and Gladys,I thought.Nice one.
As days passed,his mesmerizing smile appeared more often.Everytime he walk past me,I could feel the unusually high beatings of my heart.He was the one.He was the one who took my breath away.He took my soul away,too.I thought of him day and night,24/7.It annoyed me,but I could not help it.As weeks passed,I grew fonder of him.
He seemed like an angel in class.Almost every girl was fond of him.When some girls started flirting with him,I was getting worried.What if he likes one of them?Crossing my fingers,I wished he would not.I guess he would not,too.They were far too......gross.I shudder at the thought of them surrounding him and placing their hands on his shoulder and body.He was annoyed too,but he was obviously outnumbered.One day,I went forward and confronted them."Wow,your 'tongue-lashing' was rather impressive.Thanks anyway,Gladys."He said after the girls left,somewhat with embarrassment.His eyes was filled with sincerity as he showed me his appreciation.I was once again lost in his eyes.I did not want to look away until he narrowed his eyes at me."Sorry,I was uh....thinking of something else."I muttered.
That day came.He asked,"Want to meet up this afternoon?At the park just opposite school?For a walk?"I was curious as to why he wanted to meet me.My curiosity got the better of me and before I knew it,words left my mouth,"Sure.Why do you want me to meet with you?Just asking."The next moment was unusual.He was actually blushing!It was probably the first time he blushed in front of me."Uh....well,I don't know.Ha-ha.Meet you there then."He probed and left the classroom.My heart was beaming then.I could not wait!
Five more minutes.I quickened my pace.I did not want to leave him an impression that I am going to be late for dates.He was sitting at the bench a few tress away.I skipped towards him."Hi!What's up?"I began,almost making him jump."Whoa.Uh,let's take a walk."He told me.We strolled,and chatted about school life,friends,and all kinds of things.Then suddenly his expression changed and he told me to sit down on the bench which was before us."Urm,Gladys,I don't know how to put it,but......."I waited patiently for whatever he was going to say next.He seemed to be serious."Gladys,you're.....you're a good friend.Seriously.I mean,not only a good friend.But,you are special to me.And I am really grateful for what you have done the last time.You know,when you confronted the flirtatious girls...."Somehow,I was glad with what he had said.Hey,did he mentioned I was special?I did not hear it wrongly,did I?Before I could say anything,I was in his arms.He hugged me!My heart began palpitating.I felt warm in his arms.I wanted to make the moment last,and not let him go.But he let go after a while and gave me a big smile.Smile,yes,I thought.Your smile makes my day.
He walked me to the lift lobby of my house."You don't have to walk me up."I told him."Okay then."He said,before giving me another big smile."Hey wait Gabriel."I uttered.He turned around and gave me a 'yes-what's-up' look.I thought carefully before I spoke.Why did he said I was.....special?What did he meant?Special in a friendway or......?I was simply perplexed.I questioned myself,to confess of not to?Before I knew it,my mouth took control over my brain and I said,"I think I am fond of you."I waited for his response.For a few minutes he just stood there and stared at me.Then he smiled at me,and left.
As days passed,his mesmerizing smile appeared more often.Everytime he walk past me,I could feel the unusually high beatings of my heart.He was the one.He was the one who took my breath away.He took my soul away,too.I thought of him day and night,24/7.It annoyed me,but I could not help it.As weeks passed,I grew fonder of him.
He seemed like an angel in class.Almost every girl was fond of him.When some girls started flirting with him,I was getting worried.What if he likes one of them?Crossing my fingers,I wished he would not.I guess he would not,too.They were far too......gross.I shudder at the thought of them surrounding him and placing their hands on his shoulder and body.He was annoyed too,but he was obviously outnumbered.One day,I went forward and confronted them."Wow,your 'tongue-lashing' was rather impressive.Thanks anyway,Gladys."He said after the girls left,somewhat with embarrassment.His eyes was filled with sincerity as he showed me his appreciation.I was once again lost in his eyes.I did not want to look away until he narrowed his eyes at me."Sorry,I was uh....thinking of something else."I muttered.
That day came.He asked,"Want to meet up this afternoon?At the park just opposite school?For a walk?"I was curious as to why he wanted to meet me.My curiosity got the better of me and before I knew it,words left my mouth,"Sure.Why do you want me to meet with you?Just asking."The next moment was unusual.He was actually blushing!It was probably the first time he blushed in front of me."Uh....well,I don't know.Ha-ha.Meet you there then."He probed and left the classroom.My heart was beaming then.I could not wait!
Five more minutes.I quickened my pace.I did not want to leave him an impression that I am going to be late for dates.He was sitting at the bench a few tress away.I skipped towards him."Hi!What's up?"I began,almost making him jump."Whoa.Uh,let's take a walk."He told me.We strolled,and chatted about school life,friends,and all kinds of things.Then suddenly his expression changed and he told me to sit down on the bench which was before us."Urm,Gladys,I don't know how to put it,but......."I waited patiently for whatever he was going to say next.He seemed to be serious."Gladys,you're.....you're a good friend.Seriously.I mean,not only a good friend.But,you are special to me.And I am really grateful for what you have done the last time.You know,when you confronted the flirtatious girls...."Somehow,I was glad with what he had said.Hey,did he mentioned I was special?I did not hear it wrongly,did I?Before I could say anything,I was in his arms.He hugged me!My heart began palpitating.I felt warm in his arms.I wanted to make the moment last,and not let him go.But he let go after a while and gave me a big smile.Smile,yes,I thought.Your smile makes my day.
He walked me to the lift lobby of my house."You don't have to walk me up."I told him."Okay then."He said,before giving me another big smile."Hey wait Gabriel."I uttered.He turned around and gave me a 'yes-what's-up' look.I thought carefully before I spoke.Why did he said I was.....special?What did he meant?Special in a friendway or......?I was simply perplexed.I questioned myself,to confess of not to?Before I knew it,my mouth took control over my brain and I said,"I think I am fond of you."I waited for his response.For a few minutes he just stood there and stared at me.Then he smiled at me,and left.
Friday, October 10, 2008
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